feeling lonely

its been one month since my mom went for her treatments, will be back in one more month...... day started with a postive note... a friend of mine was in lucknow, and wanted some of his works get done in that city, so i asked my men to help him out there, and finally just half an hour back my friend called me to say thanks :) ... feels good...... day passed as usual working......went to the cycle shop to let my new driver get his new cycle, as it was already late beyond 8 pm , so i paid the money and asked my driver to collect it in the morning tomorrow....... this is his pre-diwali`s gift from me.
when i entered my room after a hard day, out of no specific reason was feeling very very lonely.......its been 4 days i didnt smoke ......so finally am out of even cigarettes... hurray !!!
at times i feel that how tough it is to not let my emptiness , bother my work......but i succeed in wearing a fake smile and keep working ....... ppl comming to me thinks m the happiest...... they call me lucky.......they r all wrong coz they never meet the real RC.
the things i have gone through in my life, i guess if someone else would have been in my place, then for sure he would be dead long back.....but the love of my parents and the love of my child, always keeps me moving further.

beautiful day

my morning started with a stupid phone call. had to go to my godowns early morning 8 ( which normally is my sleeping time )... anyways sorted out the problems and returned to take a shower and my breakfast arround 12 in the afternoon....i ate so many pooris n aloo tamatar ki sabzi in breakfast...it was delecious. then started my work. toay was reading a story, i loved it,... today was nothing special, yes arround 4:30 pm stopped working and went to a saloon, got my hair cut, beared shaved, and a full body massage......i always love the massage... it feels so good.

1st blogg is for all my friends who always encouraged me

I stated my passion for blog from scratch, to help many ppls who r struggling in their lives ( either of drugs or alcohol or depression or any thing ) i guess i got a solution for everything , coz nothing is impossible in my dictionary . 

First off, I just want to thank all my friends sincerely for encouraging me and showing faith in me. Sometimes I have a hard time expressing my gratitude with words. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
I’ve been nicely asked, strongly encouraged with to share my experience on a passion blog with no prior experience, very little time and whole lot of responsibilities. I will be posting a phone number which will for anyone who wishes to tlk about anything.
No, I don’t claim to be best in the world .(BUT I’m now realizing just how small this getting out of drugs and alcohol and to be successful in ur business is , when the whole world is looking at u with a dirty looks.)
It feels good , when ever my ex-doctor at the rehab calls me to the centre to be a role model for alots of innocent ppl who for some r the other reasons got into this drugs trap and cant find out a way even after lots of efforts . I was out of drugs long back, but qutting alcohol seemed impossible till a couple of months ago, coz i always used to think like alcohol is socially acceptable.
But as time progressed, the more I searched on line and the more I spoke to people, the more I begin to realize that the easy to follow steps I took to build such a massive influence and be successful in ur work , when no one will be willng to take u seriously ( not even ur own closest relatives, leave alone ur so called closest friends who used to freakout on ur money). This could be very valuable information for lots of young ppl gooing through any sort of problems , and shaping them to start looking for their purpose of life.
I figured that if a person like me whose resisted doing this “blogging thing” for so long due to the belief that this internet space was only reserved for the “experts only”, then there must be other people out there like me who have been holding themselves back from doing what are they are passionate because of this similar belief.
What i’ve come to realize through my own personal experience is that there is no magic , to transform ur life in something more useful and more ethical.
Anyway, if you have a second, please leave a comment below and let me know what you think.
Your response to this post will be an incredibly big help and I will do my best.